she waves goodbye and i am ruined until we meet again this time always and forever collides with happily after never.
4:43 a.m. and she is an electric blanket in a tsunami of desire and all of a sudden the fade from dream to reality returns like a morning glory in full bloom.
she is the candle to my flame with a trick wick and runaway lips. she is the elusive fox in my vineyard—
running in circles, onward and inward.
[proximity is the bastard child
of ethics and relativity.]
leave me alone, don’t leave! stay in my arms because tomorrow isn’t promised and the carolina coast meets cocoa beach
and she is more than just a degree of science in a world of fiction.
i want restricted. i want real. i want anything but fine thanks. i want monday. i want tuesday too. i want to know your favorite song
and what awakens the sleeping volcano within you (neglected dogs, for example). i want you to know that i know and i hear what you’re not saying.
i want close. and i want sun. i want hope when there is none. i want forever, just like you— bloody and real and true.